haiz.. dun noe what is happening this few days.. dun noe what happen to mie this few days. cried ytd. haiz.. i didn't want my friends to worry so i tried to be happy in front of them.. went i nor the results of the SYF. i wanted to cry but i ren.. and so i tried to cheer the rest up.. is not i have no feelings. i just do not want to show it out. haiz.. then today feel damn tired.. dun noe why feel like slping.. and is like i think that i need to catch up on my work as i miss a lot.. math teacher nv come today.. i was like damn sad.cause i need to buck up on that.. than during history.. teacher give test than i was like totally lost.. i dun noe test on what as i didn't attend lesson as i was having SYF. and a few parts of the history i haven learn.. i was really out of my mind.. i throw angry.. i really dun noe why.. than the rest of the class i was thinking and tears just came out.. i really dun noe.. and after lesson i wanted to just walk off. but teacher say she want to talk to mie.. at that time i tried not to cry. but tears just came out.. than we went to outside staff room for a chat.. there is just too much things i just dun want to tell.. but i just told her about studies. and for this few years this time i cry the worst.. as my eyes are really damn red.. usually i cry oso not so red. haiz.. i think i really need time to cool myself down.. later going out for a bike. and be alone for awhile. my phone is changing so not going to bring.. haiz.. i hope everything were just go back..